I Don't Know

I have said this phrase more than any other words in the last 6 months. 

'How long will you be gone?'

 

I don't know. 

 

'What will you be doing?' 

 

I don't know. 

 

'Do you have enough money?' 

 

I don't know. 

 

'Who are you adopting?' 

 

I don't know. 

 

 'What is the process like?' 

 

 I don't know.

 

 

 

Even now, not only do I still not have the answers to these questions, I have been left with many more unanswered. 

 

'Why has this been so hard?'

 

'Did I hear You right?'

 

'Why does every door close just as I think it is opening?'

 

'Why does it make no sense?'

 

 'What are you doing God?'

 

 

So I find that my most standard answer these days is still the same: I.don't.know.  But here is just one thing that I do know...I am more in love with Him than ever before.  And somehow that makes it all fade just a bit.  It doesn't magically make it all clear, but it brings peace in the storm, giving me strength to endure just one more day of more questions than answers.